When I began this blog a month ago, my old blog about motherhood and homeschooling had disappeared, and I needed a new place to post my thoughts. Instead of picking up where I left off, it seemed like the perfect time to look to the future and create a new space to hold everything about me. Motherhood and a homeschooling aren't the only aspects of who I am. I like to write about everything. And as a brand new blog no one reads this anyway except my closest friends (thanks Lenny!), so I thought, "what matters most?" and the answer is... getting back to being an overly emotional, wildly passionate, crazy about organic life, and stopping at nothing to be healthy again. So I decided to call my new journal Wildly Organic Healthy. Over the top? Yes, and I love it!
After finding out about a small nodule on my thyroid which was malignant and having the organ removed completely, I then learning that I had a bladder condition classified as the first stage of cancer, and my life really changed. Being a little relaxed about my health was no longer an option. I have three little boys and my health is deteriorating rapidly. So right now I am determined to make the most of life and become wildly organic and healthy. Not just physically, but emotionally and mentally. This is my life now and I accept the challenge ahead. As I began typing the paragraph below I realized that folks may start to read "me" one day and this is not a blog about recipes and tips about organic living (although I love writing those thoughts and I'm sure they'll make their way onto here), but more importantly, this blog is about my journey and who I am... and I think the title tells it all.
On October 10th we move to Tiffany Hills, a beautiful community in north Kansas City. When we moved from Florida to KC two years go I hoped this would be a bigger and better step to homesteading, homeschooling, and living a holistic organic life in simple middle America. I thought life was just beginning for our young family; a new start for us. But all at once everything went wrong. Mild health issues turned into monsters, marriage issues were made a million times worse by stress. We hated our house, which was 60+ years and had never been inspected. I thought it was inspected or I would not have moved into such a shaky home. So many problems were brought to light because we were forced to deal with them head on, and although it was painful, nothing could have been better in the long run.
We are packing for the move and are getting rid of clutter and all of the things we have collected in two years, which is a lot more than I had realized. All of this stuff, the closets packed full of things I thought we might need one day, were weighing me down. I felt heavy and sometimes paralyzed by the cleaning and organizing it took just to keep it fairly livable. My oldest son told me not too long ago that I had always kept our other houses so clean and this house was just too big for me to be the neat freak I love being. He's right. As we haul bags and boxes out to the dumpster I feel a sense of relief. Every closet and cabinet which emptied out lifts a little more of that weight off my shoulders. Deciding what is important and what I don't need or want is teaching me so much about myself. I need my kids. I need my husband. I need life surrounding me, like lots and lots of plants and pets. I need my binders because I turn every project and idea into a book full of pamphlets, notes, maps and ideas on paper. I love papers and notes and written journals. I have a Homeschool Inspiration and Encouragement Binder, A Homeschool Binder, A Food Recipe Binder, and Natural Home Recipe Binder, and a Mom Binder. I also have multitudes of Smash books. I have my art supplies and sketch books as well as multi-media books. My school books and field guides are like gold to me and I keep a binder of things I find in nature and sketches of insects and wildflowers, leaves and trees. These are the culmination of my life's work as a student of nature and a homeschooling mom. These are my treasures. Salt lamps, diffusers, candles, homemade things and gifts, baskets and woven blankets, and most importantly, my essential oils collection. My art supplies and my kids art, craft and nature supplies. And my new favorite things, games to play as a family. Clue for family game night It's a new thing we do. After getting burglarized we needed a happy weekly family night to remind each other that we have each other and no one can take that from us.
What does that say about me? Maybe that my life is not as healthful and wildly organic as some, but it's important to me and I am super excited to share this journey through my blog. We are moving and what we choose to bring with us says so much about who we are, but the joy of looking to a better future says even more, right?
Thanks for reading,
Jackie
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